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I was in the kitchen washing dishes and I glance out the window to check on her as she plays in the backyard. she has a broom and a bucket and is very busy tidying up the yard by sweeping the leaves off all the surfaces and collecting the prettiest ones in her bucket as she sings to herself. She doesn’t notice me right off, but when she does she just acknowledges with a sweet soft smile and returns to her regularly scheduled programing.

And it takes my breath away. Tears well up in my eyes and I’m momentarily stunned as I swell with gratitude. That still small voice inside of me says “SEE?! You were so scared that you didn’t even want her. You were terrified and broken, but I knew you needed this. I knew it would be worth it. I knew that the pain and the panic and the work would give you something more beautiful than you could even imagine. Trust me.”